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Sunday, September 28, 2014
Sunday, September 21, 2014
Showing Up
Today I want to pick up where I left off earlier this month
when I wrote that true mindfulness does not afford us the luxury of camping out
within the gated privacy of our own hearts and minds. Mindfulness invites and
requires us bit-by-bit, to take in the full range of our experiences from the
beautiful to the painful. All of it, every little bit. Joanna Macy says we’re
not required to be hopeful or hopeless; we’re just required to show up.
A lot of people showed up this weekend in New York City for
the People’s Climate March, more than 300,000. I imagine some were hopeful and
some were not. But they were there, there demanding action on climate change,
willing to see things as they are. Most of us who weren’t there also know how
things are. In California, we’re in a horrendous drought and fires are burning
throughout the state. The rivers are drying up which means the fish will die.
Hopeful or hopeless? Just show up? I have to choose hope and show up. It’s just much too frightening to be hopeless and
hide.
The Buddha taught that Right or Wise Action is action rooted
in non-harming of ourselves and others, and this includes our environment. If
you’d like the five specific guidelines that support non-harming, check out the
post from August 30th, Ferguson.
Lately, I’ve especially been thinking
about the last guideline; maintaining a clear mind by not using substances that
cause heedlessness. Does this include fossil fuels? Or the way we use water? Does
it include the media? How about the food we eat? How does what we take in and
what we use affect our thinking, decisions and actions?
I don’t know how to stop using fossil fuels. Everything
needs to change in order to do that; our entire orientation to our lives, our
habits and understanding about the consequences and impact of our actions. That
will require a seismic shift. But I can try. And I can stop letting the water
run down the drain while I brush my teeth. I’ve done that for years. I can also
stop watching the news, checking Facebook or reading the New York Times first
thing in the morning. All three cloud my mind with tragedy, violence and greed
leaving me scared and sometimes numb. They do not support my well-being which
certainly affects the well-being of those around me.
A guideline from the Buddha that does support my well-being
is “What when I do it will be for my long-term welfare and happiness?” I love
this question because it lets me access my innate wisdom and take wise action. I
choose to believe that given a choice, most of us will not make decisions that
intentionally cause harm. It takes a lot of mindfulness to keep this question
alive, and it makes me hopeful.
Sunday, September 14, 2014
The Fond Good-Bye
Last week when I ran into a friend at the Farmer’s Market,
she said “Wow, I haven’t seen you in such a long time. Where’ve you been? Some
other country?” I said I had just returned from visiting family in Wisconsin.
We spent 10 days in a small town along Lake Michigan rated
in June by Business Insider the most
conservative town in the state. If you know anything about Arcata or
Humboldt County, Calif., then you just might think Wisconsin is, indeed,
another country.
It’s a lovely setting; the cottage at the end of the wooded
gravel road sitting just a few steps from the beach, the lake’s vast horizon, the
endless color changes and the perpetual gentle shushing of the water on the
shore. Summertime family dinners on the
screen porch are the norm, often with at least ten of us at most meals from
grandchildren to grandparents along with any neighbor wandering by.
The
conversation commonly includes the latest news of friends, the varying health
ailments at the table, the on-going efforts to maintain some semblance of a
beachfront in the face of unstoppable natural forces, and always and eventually
circling around to politics, tenderly avoiding the galaxy-sized black holes
between our views.
During dinner on the day of our arrival, my mother-in-law,
sitting at the head of the table, made a very matter-of-fact comment about
“Skin-Heads” in Idaho. And I, in-turn, said I thought there were also a lot of
Libertarians in Idaho. And without skipping a beat, my father-in-law reared
back from the opposite end of the table and said “Hey! Wait a minute! I’m a
Libertarian. So you think I’m a Skin-Head?” Oops. “That’s it!” said my
mother-in-law in her incisive let’s-keep-the-peace voice, instantly putting a
stop to the conversation. And that really was the end of it, until about five
days later.
It was a perfectly lovely morning walk along the paved
cattail-lined path, ponds on either side, and in the distance the biggest
American flag imaginable waving high above everything; each stripe alone was 13
feet wide. I’d never seen anything like it.
My father-in-law was talking with my
husband about the growing Muslim population around the community, Islamic laws
and customs, and the general culture of fear spreading far and wide. I decided
to keep my mouth shut, enjoy the scenery and just listen. I saw it as an opportunity
for a little walking meditation. Just walk and listen, I thought, walk and
listen.
After a while, and I will admit feeling proud of myself for
keeping quiet, my father-in-law turned to me and said “And you called me a
Skin-Head the other day.” In a heartbeat, I felt myself take a breath, feel my
feet on the ground, and step into the morass.
I started by apologizing for
giving him the wrong impression with my own leap from Skin-Head to Libertarian
and assured him that I in no way think of him as a White Supremacist
hate-monger. I was relieved when he accepted my apology with a tip of his head
and slight smile, and then asked me if I knew that Webster’s defines him as a
heathen – as someone who does not believe in God. I said maybe he didn’t have
to believe in Webster’s. Now I got a bigger smile.
As we walked and he talked more about Libertarianism, the
Constitution, lobbing some challenges to other ways of thinking, it was clear
that neither one of us really wanted to cross the great divide onto the other’s
side of the galaxy. But this is my husband’s father, my children’s grandfather,
a man I’ve known for 30 years, and I love him.
So I stopped, looked him in the
eye and said “You know, we’re so loyal to our opinions. How would it be if we suspend
our loyalties long enough to ask ‘Would you be willing to tell me what you mean
by that?’ Can we talk with each other with curiosity and let our knee-jerk
assumptions go for the moment?” He said that of course he and I can do that,
but the rest of the world can’t. Well, I said, let’s just you and I try. And in
that moment, something between us shifted, leaving both of us feeling a little
triumphant.
For the rest of the visit we didn’t really talk politics or
about anything else too controversial. On the quiet early morning of our
departure as we said good-bye, this lovely man of 82 looked at me, gave me hug
and said “We did good, didn’t we?”
Saturday, August 30, 2014
Ferguson
It’s so easy to limit the definition of mindfulness to an
avenue towards finding inner peace and well-being. While that’s true, it doesn’t
end there.
The requirement of true mindfulness does not afford us the
luxury of camping out within the gated privacy of our own hearts and minds. It
requires us to include what’s happening outside of ourselves, and
little-by-little, that means everything.
So today I am writing about the
difficult and painful, about a different kind of climate disruption. Think of Michael
Brown, James Foley and Trayvon Martin, that so many marginalized people only have
access to the worst food, the dirtiest water, substandard education and
healthcare, run-down homes (if they have homes at all), that our prisons are
bursting with unprecedented numbers of young African American men, the
militarization of our police, that racial profiling is real, and I cannot leave
out the polar bears, butterflies and bees.
When I think about the myriad causes and conditions that
were present for Michael Brown to have been killed in Ferguson, I can imagine the
fear, pain, distrust, anger and resentment that created a big gaping wound of
profound suffering. As I’ve watched the footage of the protests, the wound is
obvious and palpable. No imagination is necessary. When we see this kind of pain, really take it in, we cannot unsee it. How it got there is probably
ancient and not such ancient history; traceable and untraceable, knowable and
unknowable.
In light of these terrifying and deeply disturbing events, I
want to talk about morality from the Buddhist perspective. This perspective
gives me hope and it gives me something I can do. It helps to transform my
sense of helplessness and restores my balance. I’m not giving you a lecture in
morality, I promise.
In Buddhist practice there are lists for everything. The Paramis, translated as the Perfections of the Heart is one such
list. Generosity is the first and Morality is next. Morality is also addressed
directly through Wise Action in the Eightfold Path, another foundational list. The
bottom line is that we’re asked to live a life of non-harming, but how we define
non-harming is different from one person to the next, from one community to the
next, and from country to the next.
Here are the five guidelines the Buddha taught for lay
practitioners like us that define non-harming, and set the intention for living
a moral life.
1.
Protect life by not killing anything that
breathes
2. Be generous with our resources and do not taking
anything that hasn’t been freely or directly given
3. Respect our bodies by not using sexuality in a
way that harms or exploits ourselves or others
4. Take care in how we speak to others, guiding our
language to be kind, truthful, useful and appropriate. Having good timing may
be the most crucial of all. How many times have we said something truthful,
useful and kind, but our timing was so off that what we said had nowhere to
land or caused unintended consequences?
5. Maintaining a clear mind by not using substances
to the extent that it causes heedlessness
What I appreciate about these guidelines is that they’re
offered as a practice. Perfection is not required. The Buddha also points out
through these guidelines that by protecting myself, I protect others and by
protecting others, I protect myself. This, too, is a practice that’s worth
thinking about.
I am under no illusion that by trying to live a moral life
that violence, racism, and poverty will end. But if I end it in me, and you end
it in you, we’ll have a little more peace.
Monday, August 18, 2014
Rules of the Game
Nearly 20 years ago my nieces Zoe and Marlee came to visit us
in rural northern California from their home in suburban Chicago. At the time
they were little girls, ages 5 and 3, and our kids were 6 and 7, so it was a
full house of fun little kids. One night as we sat down for dinner I asked
everyone to put their napkins in their laps. I’ll never forget the look on Zoe’s
face, age 5, when she looked me square in the eye and stated clearly and
emphatically “We don’t put napkins in laps in my neighborhood!”
* * * * * * *
Last week I played a new card game with 34 other mindfulness
teachers and facilitators. We split into seven groups of five. At the outset
each group was given the rules of the game, which included playing in silence,
though gestures and drawing pictures were allowed. After each round of five
hands, those who’d won and lost the most hands moved onto other predetermined
groups, and play resumed with the newly assembled groups.
It wasn’t long before big waves of gesturing and lots of
looks of confusion and annoyance filled the room. And then the muffled laughter
began to ripple out as we all realized that each of the original groups had
been given varying sets of rules. The collective knowledge was unnerving, confusing,
frustrating, challenging, intriguing and because it was a game, comical. One
person even stood up in the middle of her group, incredulous, hands on her hips
and said “They changed the f*#%@^g rules!”
We all know that everything changes, that life is
challenging for everyone, and on some level we understand that everything
depends on everything else. But until we’re forced, we don’t really know it in our bones. A sudden or
serious illness, the death of someone we love, an unexpected loss of a job, or
the fires burning northern California this summer, these get our attention and
we begin to get it. Hardship brings it close, much closer than when things are
going well.
The card game brought us all to the edge of our comfort.
Issues of fairness, equality, communication, competition and culture were right
there, palpable and sticky. Who was right? Was anyone wrong? How do we proceed
when there is no level playing field?
We think we know the rules, the social and emotional norms
of our families, communities, and those of the wider culture. Imagine being the only person of your skin
color, heritage or gender in a crowded room with others who not only look
nothing like you, but know the world from entirely different sets of guidelines.
What is that like? We cannot possibly know what it’s really like for anyone
else. And what about varying rules around language, money and education?
If it were only as simple as what to do with our napkins.
Monday, August 4, 2014
Five Dollar Bills
Six or seven years ago I heard a story on the radio about a
woman who saved all of the $5 bills she received in tips from her waitressing
job. At the end of each shift, she dutifully put the bills in a special place
for safe keeping. In the beginning, her intention was to simply save enough
money to buy a CD and earn some interest in a safe and predictable way. It
didn’t take her too long to buy her first one, and she realized she enjoyed the
self-imposed savings challenge and that it would actually pay off. So she kept it
up.
When the first CD matured, instead of cashing it in and
enjoying the added bonus of the interest it earned, she reinvested it all into
a new one. And, she continued to buy new CD’s as her stash of $5 bills grew. She
kept up this savings plan for a five years, and at the end had saved $12,000.
I was so inspired by this story that I decided to take up
the challenge and start saving all of my $5 bills, too. But I’m not a waitress
and don’t receive cash as part of my regular compensation, so I knew my savings
would be a lot smaller. When I began this savings plan, I found a special
secret place in my house to keep the bills, did not tell my husband where it
was, and much sooner than I expected, I had $100.
I will admit that over my own
five years of savings, I did not invest in CD’s and turn the original $100 into
$12,000. I used the money for special things like my now beloved red reading
chair, airplane tickets to visit my kids, and spending money for travel.
And then I heard the story about a woman who on her way to
Berkeley from the East Coast was given a fat sealed envelope by a friend just
before she left. The envelope was stuffed with $20 bills. The friend asked the
woman to give the money away to the homeless people she
passed on the street.
I started to imagine what it must have been like to give
those bills away, the look on people’s faces, the feeling in the hearts of both
the giver and the receiver at the precise moment the money was given, whether
or not they could look into each other’s eyes in recognition of their shared
humanity. And I started to think about
my $5 bill stash and whether or not I could give it away.
The Buddha gave some very pithy instructions about
generosity, instructions that have really sunk into my thinking. He said generosity
brings happiness in three ways: 1st, in the initial thought to be
generous, 2nd, in the actual giving, and 3rd in remembering
our generous acts.
As I thought about whether or not to give the $5 bills away,
I decided not to think about it for too long. My initial impulse to
give the money away just felt right, and over the next couple of months I gave
the bills to people on the street. While some moments were a little
uncomfortable, I found it one of the more directly satisfying ways of
expressing generosity.
My stash is gone now and I have not yet replenished it,
but when I think about the experience of handing an unsuspecting person a five,
it does make me happy.
Monday, July 28, 2014
Despite All Odds
Today, I wanted to write
about peaches, mostly the unnamable pleasure and luxury of eating a
melt-in-your-mouth drippy sweet peach. I wanted to write about peaches and
raspberries and blueberries and strawberries and pie and sunflowers. About the things of summer that fill my
heart. I wanted to write about sweetness and joy, and the human being’s
astonishing capacity to care and love, despite all odds.
Today, I read about Gaza,
Israel and Palestine, that the Colorado River Basin is drying up, that
tornadoes are blazing trails through the Midwest, about the refugee crisis at
the Texas-Mexico border, and the unprecedented numbers of hungry children in
the US. About the other things that fill my heart.
And today, I am reminded of
the utterly reliable way mindfulness helps navigate this perpetual stream of joys
and sorrows. Through increasing awareness, curiosity and the willingness to be
with the complex, intricate and incomprehensible, the beautiful and tragic, we
expand our tolerance and capacity to show up for it all.
Sitting down, feeling my feet
on the ground, the breath coming and going without my interference, being with
exactly what is as it is, knowing I
cannot end war, fix or change the climate or the crises of social justice. But
I can be courageous enough to see it. And today, that is enough.
“The biggest gift you can
give is to be absolutely present, and when you're worrying about whether you're
hopeful or hopeless or pessimistic or optimistic, who cares? The main thing is
that you're showing up, that you're here and that you're finding ever more
capacity to love this world because it will not be healed without that. That is
what is going to unleash our intelligence and our ingenuity and our solidarity
for the healing of our world.”
Monday, July 21, 2014
Summer Splendor
I've just returned from a few days backpacking in the Russian Wilderness, a spectacular area of the Klamath National Forest. In lieu of writing this week, here's a photo of where I've been.
Big Duck Lake
Monday, July 14, 2014
Just Like Dogs
This past weekend, I went to a dog trialing event called
Mondioring. It’s a sport that combines obedience, agility and protection. Most
of the dogs were Belgian Malinois, an incredibly strong, smart, agile, and
protective breed. It was amazing to watch the intensity of focus in both the
dog and the handler, and it occurs to me that dog training, mindfulness and
meditation have a lot in common. All three train us in present moment awareness
for the purpose of clear, skillful and appropriate response.
My German Shepherd Dog, Olive, teaches me this every day. If
I don’t keep up on her steady regular training and practice, she gets rusty and
sloppy which she demonstrates beautifully by ignoring my commands. It’s a
lot like my mind. When my meditation practice loses momentum or gets off track,
my general level of mindfulness gets sloppy and my mind seems to ignore my
commands, too!
Just like the dog obedience basics sit, stay, heal, and down,
there are basic components of mindfulness and meditation that support our
practice.
Zeal and Passion
– the drive that brings us back to practice over and over again. With something
as fundamentally difficult as training the mind, focusing the attention, and
developing skillful response, we need zeal and passion to keep us going.
Energy, Courage and
Persistence – mindfulness and meditation practice have their normal cycles.
Sometimes it’s easy, accessible, peaceful, insightful, rejuvenating and
invigorating. And sometimes it’s just plain impossible, inaccessible, painful,
boring, and exhausting. Finding the energy, courage and persistence to stick
with it is essential to cultivating the long-term benefits of practice.
Patience, Return,
Begin Again – truly the way it is. The mind pulls us in thousands of
directions and the practice is to return, again and again. It certainly requires
patience, and beginning again is a relief. It doesn’t matter where we’ve been;
we just come back, take a breath and begin again. The shining gem of practice
is this very precise moment when we notice we’re someplace else. It’s in this
moment of knowing that we are absolutely present. And then we lose it. Give
yourself the gift of patience by opening the door to come back and the gentle
permission to begin again.
Investigation,
Curiosity and Creativity – the fun part. Without curiosity and creativity,
practice can be utterly flat. Wherever we are, whatever we’re doing, whether in
meditation, or work, or doing the dishes, when we bring curiosity or
investigation to the task, we open the doors to a wider experience. Be creative
with your practice, whatever it is. Experiment.
Some traditions have specific rules for practice. But
within the tradition of mindfulness meditation there’s a lot of flexibility;
noting emotions, naming thought patterns, focusing on the breath, the body or
sounds, investigating whatever arises, resting in open awareness, or even metta
practice. Like dog training, find a way that works for you and do it. Just sit
down, breath and watch your mind.
"Wisdom arises with practice
Without practice, it decays.
Knowing this two-way path for gain and loss
Conduct yourself so that wisdom grows."
The Buddha, The Dhammapada, verse 282
Tuesday, July 8, 2014
Explosion
Just a few days ago I was filling my tank at the gas station,
the kind with two parallel banks of pumps with two pumps each, and enough space
for eight cars at a time. I was on the far outside of one bank with another car
on the other side of this same bank. A man in a white car on the far outside of
the other bank was just finishing filling his tank when another man pulled in
towing a large boat behind an even larger pickup truck, and happened to be smoking
a cigarette.
Everyone was outside of our cars when sparks started to fly.
The man in the white car began yelling at the man with the boat to put his
cigarette out. And, with his lit cigarette hanging loosely between his lips, the
boat man thoroughly and completely ignored the yelling as it got louder and
nastier, replete with extremely crude one-sided name calling. It was a fiery explosion
of fury.
I felt a bit scared by this escalating outburst and got back
into my car wondering what, if anything, I could do to help. Call the police,
try to calmly intervene, or do nothing. I did nothing, when suddenly the irate
man slammed his door shut, pealed out of the station squealing his tires and
honking his horn at the precise moment the other man slowly, deliberately and
silently put his cigarette out.
This is a perfect illustration of last week’s discussion of
the teaching of the Two Arrows. To recap, the Two Arrows teaches that the
everyday difficulties and challenges of living a life are akin to being shot by
an arrow. We all get shot and it hurts. But how we react or respond to this
pain determines whether or not we shoot the second arrow, or the third, fourth
or the fifth. And this in turn determines whether or not we manage our pain and
difficulty skillfully or spread it around like a contagious infection.
Who knows what was going on with these men. The anger and
fear underlying the one man’s outburst were probably about a lot more than a
man smoking at a gas station. And what about the silent arrows shot by the
smoking man’s stubbornness? Both shot a whole quiver of arrows.
Here’s an excerpt from a beautifully poignant short story by
Alethea Black.
You, on a Good Day
“You don’t give the finger to the black pickup truck that
tailgates and passes you aggressively, then let go of the wheel to give it two fingers when you see a
rainbow-tinted peace sticker on the bumper. You do not call the friend – the
one who was in the hospital a few weeks ago, and whom you did not visit or call
– you do not call her today because today you need something from her. You do
not consider dousing your refrigerator with gasoline and setting it on fire
because of the sound its motor makes while you’re trying to work…You do not
conjure up, in as vivid detail as possible, every time anyone has ever wronged
you in any way…You do not wish that your hairdresser would stop talking about
her near-death experience and start focusing on what she’s doing with the
scissors. You do not care more about your bangs than you do about the life of a
sister human…
“You do not, you do not, you do not…
“Not on this day. On this day, you wake up and remember the
sight of your four-year-old nephew aiming all of his fire trucks at the
television during the coverage of the California wildfires because he wanted to
help. On this day, you think about the afternoon you heard a famous poet
thoughtfully, gently, lovingly answer a deranged question from an audience
member who was mentally ill. On this day, you think about the day the woman in
the ATM vestibule heard you crying on the customer service phone because you’d
pushed the wrong button and you needed access to that money right away because
that check was all the money you had and she had reached into her wallet and
handed you a twenty. On this day, you remember Anne Frank’s little scribbled words
– or, you don’t so much remember them as you see them floating before your eyes
because you’ve got them taped to your wall on a scrap of paper – It’s a wonder I haven’t abandoned all my
ideals, they seem so absurd and impractical. Yet I cling to them because I
still believe, in spite of everything, that people are truly good at heart.”
There’s much more to this story. To read it in its entirety,
you can order it from One Story, one-story.org.
Monday, June 30, 2014
Pain & Suffering
So often, mindfulness is defined as the non-judgmental,
non-reactive awareness of our present moment experience. But non-judgmental and
non-reactive awareness need to be defined.
When I watch my own judgmental mind and notice just how fast
it tells me what’s good or bad, or what’s right or wrong, I am amazed at what I’m
willing to believe without connecting those thoughts and opinions to my actual current
experience.
Mindfulness asks us to develop awareness based on our direct
experience, not the stories we tell ourselves from old conditioned beliefs that
may not be accurate or relevant to our present experience. The willingness,
curiosity and courage to suspend these opinions long enough to really see what’s
happening is how mindfulness defines non-judgmental. It’s an effective way of developing
the discerning mind that leads to skillful decisions and wise actions. It’s the
mind that has good judgment.
From a mindfulness perspective, reactivity is understood as
the compulsive grasping and clinging or rejecting and pushing away of whatever
our experience may be. Being non-reactive doesn’t require us to like what’s
happening. It asks us to loosen our grip on how we think things ought to be,
again suspending our opinions long enough to respond wisely and effectively.
Working
with our conditioned judgmental and reactive minds is difficult, and developing
mindful awareness expands our tolerance and increases our responsiveness.
Here’s a wonderful story from the Buddhist tradition, the
Teaching of the Two Arrows.
All of us, no matter who we are, experience pain,
challenge, difficulty, anxiety, stress and suffering. This is the First Noble
Truth; life is difficult for everyone, period. In this story, the difficulty of
living a life is akin to being shot by an arrow. We all get shot and it hurts. How
we react or respond to this pain determines whether or not we shoot the second
arrow, or the third, fourth or the fifth.
Shooting the second arrow is up to us and it comes in all
sorts of ways; arguments with people we love after being stuck in
bumper-to-bumper traffic, unkind comments to customer service people because we’re
not getting what we want, killing a skunk because it sprayed the dog, or any
kind of harmful retaliatory actions that stem from our own pain. Do we
perpetuate the pain and anger by firing back or do we have the skill,
discipline and restraint to recognize and manage our own discomfort? Mindfulness
gives us a choice.
Recently I was having a conversation with a 91 year old man
struggling with the natural physical degradations of being 91. After talking
about mindfulness and sitting in meditation together for a bit, he asked “Do
you think if someone has a terminal illness it’s still possible to be happy?” I
wonder if ultimately this is the only question there ever really is.
How, in the face of sure suffering and sure death, can we
find happiness? For me, I want to remember to notice beauty, to say ‘thank you,’
and not to shoot the second arrow.
Monday, June 23, 2014
Work is Real Life, Part 2
I hope you found last week’s practices useful and helpful. While these are suggestions for managing our work-lives, they’re really applicable
anywhere. Here are two more practices you might try.
Mindfulness in
Conversations:
Coming back to our common desires, we want clear and kind
communication so we know we've been heard and recognized.
The language and the
tone of voice we use, choosing good timing, telling the truth in a useful way,
being clear about our intentions, and listening with curiosity and patience are
vital components of effective communication. And it takes a lot of mindfulness
and a lot of practice to get it right. A few ways of working with this are:
- Keep your intentions and motivations in mind. What is the purpose of the conversation?
- Listen completely. Notice if you’re rehearsing your response before the other person has finished speaking. If so, you've stopped listening.
- Tune into the needs of the other person. Ask yourself what this person needs. When you do this, your responses will be more accurate and effective. It’s a great way to develop empathy.
- Think kind thoughts and use kind words. This really works. It changes the tone of the conversation, even when it’s difficult.
- With conflict, notice if you’re making assumptions. Ask yourself “Am I sure? Is it true?”
Cultivating Well-Being
at Work:
At the beginning of the day, set an intention for how you’d
like your day to go and what you can do to enjoy yourself. At the end of the day,
think about the best moment of the day. Let it be something that made you feel
happy, something that gave you real satisfaction. Think about it for a few
minutes, visualize it. Maybe even tell someone about it.
Try doing this and writing
it down every day for a month. At the end, you’ll have thirty days of
satisfying moments at work and tangible reminders of your well-being.
Monday, June 16, 2014
Work is Real Life
Lately I've been thinking about the nature of work and how
we often view of our work-lives as separate from our “real” lives. But work is
just like life. It includes everything, the full range of our thoughts, feelings,
and emotions. Wherever we are, however we are, the entirety of our lives is
always with us. It informs who we are, how we see the world and how we act.
For most of us, we hope our work sustains us in ways beyond
our economic needs and desires. Whether
we are owners, managers or staff members, we are all trying to manage ourselves
and our relationships at work as skillfully as we can.
We typically want the
same things from our jobs regardless of our title: respect, trust, recognition,
care, empathy, clear communication, a sense of community, and the freedom to
creatively use our minds in ways that access our skills.
Managing our jobs and
our businesses with mindfulness at the core creates a healthy and dignified
work environment for everyone. But what is it really and how do we bring it
into our work lives?
Mindfulness is the process of steadying, training, and
quieting the mind to see what is actually happening around us and within us, in
our minds, hearts and bodies. As our awareness develops, we’re more able to
step out of the center of our own stories increasing our capacity for curiosity,
expanding our tolerance and resilience, and decreasing the mind’s habitual
patterns of unhelpful judgments and internal criticism.
By training the mind
and body to notice and pay attention to what’s happening, the tension in the
mind and the stress in the body often decrease. This gives us more access to
our innately clear minds, our naturally kind hearts and our discerning wisdom
which in turn lead to skillful, wise action and effective response.
It’s important to recognize that mindfulness is not about
becoming a better this or that. It’s about becoming fully aware of whatever is
happening, whether we like it or not, whether it’s pleasant or painful, and
finding some ease even with difficulty. In essence, mindfulness increases our capacity
to manage the day-to-day challenges and joys of life wherever we are.
Quick & Easy
Practices:
You can use mindful awareness practices anywhere, anytime
and they are especially effective at work. Here are a few practices you might
like.
Mindfulness of the Body:
Anytime you feel stress, anxiety or fear, see if you can
feel the bottoms of your feet on the floor. If you’re sitting in a chair, try
getting a sense of your bottom in the chair. Try it now. Notice what happens.
What do you feel? What are you thinking about?
What happens when you do this,
is that it immediately stops the mind-chatter about other stress. It doesn't solve the problem, but it re-directs your attention and brings the nervous
system back into balance while you focus on these sensations. This works
because the brain will not advance two story-lines at once. Try that, too. See
if you can focus on the sensations of your feet touching the floor while you
think about the cause of your anxiety. You probably can’t do both.
Mindfulness of the Breath:
Taking a deep breath is a powerful and immediate way of
calming the nervous system and letting us see a situation with a little more
clarity. Try to get a sense of your breathing. Just feel your breath coming and
going. Notice how breathing happens on its own without you controlling it,
though you can certainly change its rhythm and depth.
Placing attention on the
breath functions similarly to noticing the feet on the floor. It re-directs the
attention from whatever is happening in the mind and allows both the mind and
the body to quiet.
Busyness at Work:
We all know what it’s like to have too much on our plates.
The pressure and expectations are high. We want to do well, and it feels
impossible to keep up. When you find yourself in this situation, try to slow
down. Do one thing at a time. The brain does not naturally or effectively
multi-task, even though we sometimes pride ourselves on how much we think we
can do at once. Being thorough task-by-task is ultimately much more efficient
and effective.
These practices are a beginning. Those that focus on how we talk to
one another, how we talk to ourselves, and how we cultivate well-being at work are
also vitally important. Stay tuned for more one this subject.
When we develop
and integrate mindfulness into our work environments, it becomes a way of being
individually, with our co-workers, bosses and customers. It defines the culture
of the work environment itself.
Sunday, June 8, 2014
Snake Oil
Next week I’ll be attending a retreat focusing on the
Buddha’s teachings on Wise Speech. The Buddha taught that wise speech is
truthful, useful, kind, appropriate, and avoids gossip. In anticipation of this
retreat, I’ve been thinking about the enormous power of language and its effect
on our lives, and in particular, the consequences of stretching or distorting
the truth, and outright lying.
Emerald City Laundry is a big busy neighborhood laundromat
in Arcata, the town where I live in northern California. It’s the kind of place
that buzzes with action every day; lots of people with lots of laundry. As one
of the owners of the store, it’s my job to keep the store in top operating
condition, and periodically we replace large numbers of washers all at once.
This takes a lot of organization and coordination to remove old machines and
install the new ones with as little disruption as possible.
On our most recent washer replacement day, everything was in
especially good order. It was a Wednesday (our quietest day of the week), the
weather was beautiful, and the extra staff we’d hired was ready to work. The
truck arrived right on time from Los Angeles, about a thousand miles away, unloaded
eight large heavy washers, and promptly left. As soon as we uncrated the first
one, we realized the shipment was not the one we ordered.
Many phone calls ensued to the long list of people involved
in this purchase and delivery. Tempers were short, no one knew how such a big
error occurred, and no one wanted to take responsibility. We just wanted to
know when the trucker would return to pick up the mistaken load and deliver the
correct one.
Sometime during the day, we found out that the equipment
company dispatcher knew the wrong
machines had been loaded on the truck, allowed them to leave the warehouse and
be transported and delivered to our store so very far away. This same
dispatcher also had the correct washers loaded on a different truck slated for
delivery the very next day, but without telling anyone. We looked at each other
is dismay.
After coming to the obvious conclusion that there was
nothing we could do about this fiasco, I sat down at my desk to get some other
work done. In my email was a slick full color solicitation from a person
offering business development seminars. Among the many things this program
promised was “delirious contentment.” What
a fabulous oxymoron! I tried to imagine being delirious and contented at the
same time. Snake oil.
When I got home at the end of this same day there was a
particularly large black glossy envelope in the mail. I was intrigued enough to
open the package, and it turned out to be yet another credit card solicitation.
Inside and across the top of the sleek black invitation it said in large white
letters “Luxury without Limits.” More snake oil.
The day seemed like a joke. Eight incorrect commercial
washing machines shipped a thousand miles on
purpose, the promise of delirious contentment and luxury without limits. I
think the Buddha would just slowly shake his head.
Wise speech asks us to find the courage to tell the truth
even when we’re embarrassed. It also reminds us that just because something is enticing
and promising, it may not be all it’s cracked up to be, and it certainly won’t
last forever.
"You should know that kind speech arises from kind mind, and kind mind from the seed of compassionate mind. You should ponder the fact that kind speech is not just praising the merit of others; it has the power to turn the destiny of a nation."
- Zen master Dogen
"You should know that kind speech arises from kind mind, and kind mind from the seed of compassionate mind. You should ponder the fact that kind speech is not just praising the merit of others; it has the power to turn the destiny of a nation."
- Zen master Dogen
Sunday, May 25, 2014
Temporarily & Unexpectedly Precious
My husband, Bill, and I recently spent a couple of weeks hiking
in remote areas of southern Utah, a starkly beautiful, nearly silent ancient
desert landscape almost entirely off the grid. The magnitude of the natural
forces that continually shape and carve the multi-colored sandstone and
slickrock landscape is hard to comprehend, the sheer power of wind,
water, erosion and time.
On one hike we stood under a 165 million year old
massive sandstone natural bridge. Unspeakably and profoundly small in
comparison, we were awestruck at just how short a time we’re here in this life,
that we’re just guests passing through.
After a few days of acclimating to the altitude, sleeping on
the ground, convincing ourselves that the backpacking food was really delicious
and being generally grimy, we set out on what would be a particularly fabulous
day. The sky was a patchwork of cerulean blue and low-lying white billowy clouds,
and the temperature was mild with a light breeze to keep us cool.
It was a long hike, about 11 miles, and we
were in no hurry. The trail was both challenging and comfortable, included sand
and dirt, required climbing up, down and around big boulders, through a short
slot canyon and across fields of fragrant sage brush amid the explosion of desert wildflowers at the peak of the
springtime bloom; yellow, pink, white, purple, red and orange. Really a perfect
day and we were relishing it.
It was our last day before going back to town to load up on
groceries, check in with our families and head out into the next
remote area. Towards the end of that perfect day I had a peculiar feeling that
the next day we would get some bad news.
It came out of nowhere. And when I told Bill about it, he rolled
his eyes. It was a fleeting thought, and I let pass as
quickly as it came.
While traveling the next morning, we turned on our phones and
they both lit up with plenty of voice and text messages, not so unusual for
being away for a week. But the messages were indeed bad news, the kind of news that
changed our bliss to sadness in a moment. It brought us back to the true nature
of our lives, the true nature of all of our lives.
Everything changes. Life is difficult
for everyone. And things happen because other things happen. It’s not personal,
it just happens. And it’s really true that without experiencing sorrow, we cannot
understand joy, or without the light, there’d be no dark, and pleasure and pain
rub up against each other constantly. Life includes everything.
I recently heard a story about two elderly women living their
last days in assisted living facilities. Both had lost their ability to speak
with the exception of three words. One woman had two words, and the other had
one. The words were temporarily, unexpectedly and precious. What a great
description of our trip and our lives. What if we choose to live our lives
knowing how temporarily and unexpectedly precious this life truly is? I think
it could change everything.
Sipapu Bridge, Natural Bridges National Monument, Utah
Thursday, May 1, 2014
Let Peace Come to You
I know I said I wouldn't post anything until the end of May, but I came across these beautiful meditation instructions and want to pass them along. They come from Sujato, a well-loved Buddhist monk and teacher from Australia.
When you meditate, just relax.
Don't try to control your mind.
Don't try to stop it going here and there.
Just be peaceful.
Don't watch your breath. Just breathe.
Be at peace when your mind is still. Be at peace when your mind is wandering.
Don't judge one state as better than the other. It is just how the mind is.
Let mindfulness settle down with the breath.
As you stop judging, stop trying, and stop controlling, peace will come to you.
Welcome it.
Sunday, April 20, 2014
Ethics in Action
This is the last post until the end of May. If you get
hungry for a little mindfulness, check out the archives. Every post from the
last year is available anytime. Today’s post is adapted from a previous one. I wish you a wonderful month.
The thought manifests as the word
The word manifests as the deed
The deed develops into habit
And the habit hardens into character
So watch the thought and its ways with care
And let it spring from love
Born out of concern for all beings
The word manifests as the deed
The deed develops into habit
And the habit hardens into character
So watch the thought and its ways with care
And let it spring from love
Born out of concern for all beings
This is one of my favorite pieces of wisdom from the Buddha
because I think it’s really true. I know that when my mind thinks caring and kind
thoughts, my speech and actions will likely follow suit. I feel clear and at
ease. Or if my mind is caught in contention and my thoughts aren’t so kind or
caring, I hope I’ll have enough awareness to keep from acting them out and have
the restraint to keep my mouth shut.
In the classical Buddhist teachings of the Noble Eightfold
Path, Wise or Right Action are those actions that are rooted in harmlessness. The
Buddha gives specific guidelines in the form of precepts, a code of ethical
conduct. Really, they aren’t so specific to Buddhism; they’re simply the moral,
skillful and harmless way of living. You’ll recognize them.
1.
Abstain from taking life; don’t kill
2.
Abstain from taking anything that has not been
freely given; don’t steal
3.
Abstain from the misuse of sexuality
4.
Abstain from using harmful or false speech;
don’t lie
5.
Abstain from the use of intoxicants to the
degree that the mind becomes clouded and causes heedlessness
At first glance, these precepts seem quite obvious, but in
actuality they may be more difficult to carry out.
How far do we take not
killing? What about the ants carrying aphids to the artichoke plants or string
beans in the garden? What about that magazine on the table in the waiting room
at the dentist’s office that has an article you’d like to read? And how do we
express our sexuality and in what environments? How about the time we said
something in public that was told to us in confidence and caused a friend
humiliation? And, the consequences of drinking too much or using other
intoxicants are well-known.
Our actions really do have consequences, whether in the
immediate or somewhere down the line. This is the law of karma. In fact, karma
translates as action.
I remember a difficult time in my life many years ago
when I was struggling with an unhealthy relationship, doing everything I could
to make it work. It took me quite a while to see that nearly every encounter I
had brought me pain, seemingly endless pain. It was like sitting in a chair
with a broken leg. Each time I sat in that chair, I fell on the ground and
injured my tailbone.
The Buddha taught that our happiness and unhappiness are
dependent upon our own actions, not on anyone else’s wishes for us. This is
what it means to be the heir to our own karma. The truth that we really can and
do directly influence our lives through our own actions is a profoundly
liberating statement. When our motivations and intentions come from
harmlessness and goodwill, we are likely to act skillfully and wisely.
I find that when I really pay attention, I am my own best guide.
“When I do good, I feel good. When
I do bad, I feel bad. That is my religion.”
Abraham Lincoln
Sunday, April 13, 2014
Internal Disarmament
Spring is in full bloom in northern California. The rhododendrons,
azaleas, viburnum and flowering cherry trees are bursting with flowers. It’s
gorgeous.
I spent the morning rowing on Humboldt Bay with two dear
friends in perfect conditions; flat water, no wind, sun shining and so much
birdlife. Even the seals were curiously poking their heads up alongside our
boats to check us out. Mornings like this are full of connection and belonging.
They’re the threads that weave and bind us to ourselves, to our families and
friends, and to our communities and the natural world. It’s the stuff of
spiritual practice.
In our meditation groups, we show up week after week to sit
together, to practice together. None of us could do this without the other. Our
practice depends on it. We could actually say that our lives depend on it,
because they do. I depend on my weekly groups as one of the core supports for
my life.
Whatever our practice is, whether it’s in a formal setting, out in
nature, reading a book, listening to music, talking with a friend, making a
meal, it feeds our spirits and we can’t do it alone. We might we think we can,
but for practice to really flourish, we need each other.
Each week in class our meditations include both mindfulness/insight
practice as well as metta, the practice of intentionally inclining the mind and
heart towards goodwill and kindness. But they’re really not separate
practices. Mindfulness is inherently
kind, and being kind is by nature mindful.
I don’t think we can be kind without
being mindful. It just doesn't work because the intention is ultimately the
same; to settle the mind, open the heart, and cultivate a soft resilience that allows
us to be engaged in our lives skillfully and wisely without rancor or
contention. In fact, the Dalai Lama talks about these practices as “the process
of internal disarmament.”
Mindfulness and kindness are intimately and inextricably
linked, and the outcome is a clear mind and a loving heart. When we intentionally
infuse our lives with kindness and awareness, our connections deepen and our
sense of belonging grows.
A Rabbit Noticed My
Condition
I was sad one day and went for a walk;
I sat in a field.
A rabbit noticed my condition and
Came near.
It often does not take more than that to help at times-
To just be close to creatures who
Are so full of knowing,
So full of love
That they don’t
-chat,
They just gaze with their
Marvelous understanding.
-St. John of the Cross
Sunday, April 6, 2014
My Daughter Fell Off the Trampoline
My daughter Sarah had a beautiful butterfly stroke. She was
eight years old and swam with fluidity, strength and desire. I loved sitting in
the bleachers watching her swim, marveling at her ease and determination.
Sometime that year, her father set up a trampoline in our back yard. The kids
were overjoyed and I could feel disaster looming.
One day after school the kids were having a great time on
tramp. I was in the kitchen making dinner when I heard Sarah scream. I looked
out the window and saw her crumpled on the ground holding her arm and her
brother running in to get me. She had fallen off of the trampoline not while
jumping, but while trying to sit down on the edge and missing the rim with her
outstretched arm, falling to the ground arm straight palm first. She’d
fractured her elbow.
What does this have to do with mindfulness or meditation?
Lately I’ve been thinking about what brought me to practice, why I practice and
what sustains me. Sarah’s elbow fracture was really bad. It took lots and lots
of physical therapy and many months to heal. It was the end of that beautiful
butterfly stroke.
One day Sarah and I were talking about what sort of activity
she thought would be fun and she suggested yoga. Not long after that, she and I
took an Introduction to Yoga class series where my meditation
practice crept back into my life and really took hold.
So when I think about what brought me to practice, it was my
husband buying the trampoline and my daughter falling off of it. I can’t say
that I’m grateful for the trampoline accident. We got rid of it not long after,
but I am grateful to my daughter for choosing yoga and allowing me to go to
class with her.
I was lucky enough to have a yoga teacher who integrated
meditation quite naturally into her teaching, and the same teacher for
introducing me to a book written by Sylvia Boorstein, who is now one of my primary
teachers and mentors.
Why I practice and what sustains me are two sides of the
same coin and are mutually supportive. Mindfulness practice both in formal
meditation and daily life help me live a kinder, more compassionate and wise
life through cultivating clarity and patience.
I don’t always get it right, but
practice supports and sustains these intentions, and keeps me on track. And when
I do get it right, I know why I practice. It really works.
What brought you to practice?
Why do you practice?
What sustains you?
Why do you read this blog?
“We know what is proper, especially in difficult situations,
from the wisdom arising out of contemplation.”
Confucius
Sunday, March 30, 2014
Closet Cleaning
After last week’s discussion on the nature of thoughts and
how they condition our moods, our emotions and our actions, I serendipitously came across this poem. It’s so funny how the right piece of wisdom can pop up
just when we need it.
The mind is ever a tourist
Wanting to touch and buy
New things then throw them
Into an already full closet.
Hafiz
Does your mind ever feel like an already full closet? Mine
does. And sometimes it feels like it’s full of clothes that don’t fit, worn out
shoes, and piled up dust-covered junk on the top shelf that hasn’t moved in
years. That’s how it feels when my mind is trying to accommodate way too much,
with its insatiable propensity to think about, dream about, and figure out
about.
And that’s the nature of the mind. It makes thoughts.
Sometimes these thoughts fit and serve us well, sometimes it’s just clutter, and
sometimes it’s like taking stuff out of the garbage that’s already been
thoroughly processed and does not need to be recycled yet again.
I’m very grateful for meditation practice. It calms, sorts
through, and clarifies my mind. Here’s a practice you might try when your mind
feels too full and it’s hard to see one clear thought through to the next.
Wherever you are take a breath. Whether you’re in the car, in
the line at the grocery store, on the phone with customer service because your
flight’s just been cancelled, or sitting on your meditation cushion, take a
breath. Really notice the in-breath and the out-breath; its length, its depth,
let the breath be felt.
At the end of the out-breath get a sense of your feet,
especially the bottoms of your feet. If you’re standing or sitting in a chair,
see if you can feel them on the ground. If you’re sitting on your cushion, just
get a sense of the soles of your feet. Imagine breathing in and out of your
feet for the next minute.
You’ll notice that if you really stick with the breath, it
instantly changes the mind’s focus and cuts whatever storyline it had going.
The mind will not advance two storylines simultaneously. I find that
re-directing the mind from the thought clutter to one simple palpable focus
calms everything and lets me see more clearly.
Once I’ve settled, I like using an image of the full moon
over the ocean at night resting on the horizon. I imagine standing on the beach
while the moonlight shines towards me across the water. It reminds me of this
poem.
Let my doing nothing
When I have nothing to do
Become untroubled in its depth
Of peace like the evening
In the seashore when the
Water is silent
Rabindranath
Tagore
Sunday, March 23, 2014
Thoughts are Just Thoughts
Recently in one of our sitting groups, we were talking about
what we've individually found to be a benefit of mindfulness practice as well
as what we've experienced as obstacles.
One man came in a few minutes late, gently apologized for
the interruption, got himself situated on his cushion, and began to weep as he
joined in the discussion. He was overwhelmed with relief and gratitude for just
being able to show up at all. He shared that mindfulness in general, and meditation
specifically allow him to be with the pain of the unexpected loss of a close
relationship, his tender heart, his fear, anger and sadness in a way that also
allow him to hold himself with a modicum of love and compassion through which he
can feel a bit of ease and sometimes even some joy.
At the end of the sitting, he came up to me and said “You
know, I just realized that all thoughts are neutral. It’s everything I do with
them that cause the problems.” It was a beautiful moment. He experienced the
profound insight into the link of pleasant-unpleasant-neutral thoughts and how
they condition our emotions and actions. We talked about how in-between the
awareness of a given thought and our response, there’s a space. And it’s in
that space, often completely unnoticed or traversed in a nanosecond, we have
great power and choice.
Sometimes I’m asked “why mindfulness, what’s the benefit?” Simply
stated, mindfulness allows us to see what’s what with curiosity and acceptance.
It is the practice of uncluttering and tidying up the mind. When we see what’s
what, the volume is turned down on reactivity, we develop patience and resilience,
and we have more access to our innately clear minds, our kind hearts and our
discerning wisdom.
It’s important to recognize that mindfulness is not about
becoming a better this or that. It’s about becoming fully aware of whatever is
happening, whether we like it or not, whether it’s pleasant or painful, and
being at ease even with difficultly. Difficult circumstances do not
automatically mean despair or unhappiness. They mean difficult circumstances. Being
at ease in the midst of difficulty is not fatalistic, giving up, or sticking
one’s head in the sand, but rather it’s the solid rich fertile ground out of
which positive change can occur. When we stop being in contention with our
circumstances but recognize them as they are, we can make skillful deliberate
choices about how to proceed. Mindfulness is the awareness of our direct
experience stripped of inference and the stories we tell ourselves about what’s
happening.
Using mindfulness to hone our awareness and sharpen our
concentration for the purpose of becoming better at our jobs is fine, but I
believe it is not the foundational intention of mindfulness. It is not to
become a better soldier, a better teacher, a better grocer, a better nurse, a
better politician, a better corporate executive. It is to become kinder, more
compassionate and wise, and live a life that accommodates all of the joys and
sorrows, the twists and turns that comprise being human without harming
ourselves or anyone else. And in the process, we just might become better at
our jobs, too.
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